Back in May, Carrie Underwood was likely very bummed to hear that metalcore band I Prevail had split up with their founding vocalist Brian Burkheiser in what was described at the time as a mutual decision. Everything sounded hunky-dory for the most part, with the band’s statement asserting that even though it was a difficult decision, it was “the right one.”

Yet in a recent statement from Burkheiser, it sounds like even though there’s no hard feelings between the two parties, he’s unhappy with how it all went down.

Rather than paraphrase his statement, here’s what he posted on social media:

“I will change the music industry forever. There are no rules to this shit. You can be whatever the fuck you wanna be. But if you don’t live your truth, don’t go blaming anyone else. Someone taught me that this week and I have run with that mindset ever since. I had to do this for my family. I couldltm take this anymore. I am meant to be here. I’m just gonna keep posting music till I go to bed. But tomorrow everyone’s gonna wake the fuck up and treat each other kindly. Every single member of I prevail is a good person.

“We were all just kids. None of us knew what the fuck we were doing. It all happened so fast. There is no beef. I love every single one of those guys whether they know it or not. But yeah, shit did get though along the way and I do think that I didn’t deserve how things went down. But it doesn’t mean they are bad people. We’re all just going thru shit. Everyone is trying to feed the family. The only thing I will say. Is that I did try to communicate more and I wish that they would’ve talked to me more. But if it took it coming down to this to teach the world this lesson then I’m OK with that because I want to rekindle my friendships with those guys one day. 

“Whether you know it or not, I am proud of you Eric [Vanlerberghe | I Prevail: unclean vocals]. You wnt through a lot of things the world doesn’t know about. I want to see you I miss you. 
Maybe I fucked up tonight. Honestly, I have really no idea what I’ve done.. but I’m just trying to be as vulnerable as I can be. I’m trying to prove to the world that any relationship can be mended. I guess I’m trying to have my ‘My Name is Earl’ moment. I had no idea all of the stuff was going to happen in two days ago. I had no idea that I was going to post Instagram stories. But I mentally broke. The truth is this shit has had me so mentally unwell for so long.

“If anybody goes If anybody goes and talk shit to I prevail their show today I will be so upset. You better give them the best fucking show of their lives.

“Also, I love every single member of the I Prevail crew. Those guys work their fucking asses off. Today I want all of you guys to please give them a big ass round of applause for everything they did for me over the 10 years in the band.”